i cant believe ill be turning 25 in 3 months time..
it feels like i was just 21...
having the best life..being a student,studied in melby...but now..
quarter life crisis..

2 friends told me i have to seriously get a day off and really think bout what i want to do for the rest of my life..
i know for a fact i dont like my current job.
its just that im staying because i feel comfortable and they pay me not WELL but at least enough for me to survive..
which is the reason im still with them after working for 2 years..

i have a dream.something i really want to do..
but i dont have an idea how to start..
nw i understand why most girls like to pick guys of older age,..so they could advise during situations of such..

sometimes i feel a bit useless..not like useless useless but more of like not knowing my directions..
and being 25 soon makes it worst. i hope i'll get hint before i reach 25. *keeping fingers crossed*

hobby:doing parody of songs...
reason: had a small lil thingy with the bf on d way back and i decided to just shut up. so Samantha Mumba » Gotta Tell You was playing and i thought.... hey when i hear songs all d time,there'd be flashbacks of things twirling around the lil head of mine...then i remembered i did a song for the bf years back when i first met him.*not sure if he remembers it though* and i thought i did pretty well *applause for self praising :P* but i don't think i have the time to sit down on my piano to actually pick keys to do up songs so i just thought maybe if i picked a certain song a week and do up my lyrics, i'd be practically practicing my vocab, sharpening my poetry skills and occupying my time with something i like to do..

so heres a lil sneak peek at the 1st verse (i cant figure out the title though so do bare with me...):-

From the first few letters you wrote to me,
I remember til I fall asleep,
Those words you said, makes me believe,
That maybe, you could be the one.

Then came the first time that we ever met,
I remember how my heart have raced,
Just two of us, how not to fret,
Cause maybe, you are not the one.

i shall contnue the rest for the rest of my week. lets hope ths hobby of mine lasts so I can keep this blog of mine active again :)

life can be so funny at times...
when u want and pray 4 sumthin..it doesnt happen 2 u..but when u r juz about 2 gif up,hope cums chasin after u...
by this time shud u b grateful and take d opportunity or wud u b too tired to chase after tat dream of urs and head on to another direction?
tat truely depends on u..

i've heard stories of similar versions that I wud luv 2 share today..Like all love birds,both Guy A and Gal B were truely madly deeply in love with each other. That is until boy A begin to focus on something else in life...When he did so,he neglected Gal B.I suppose Gal B then started doing things to gain the attention of Boy A but failed. When Gal B tried n tried,she got fed up of it 1 day and decided tat there is no use trying anymore and better off heading on to another direction. So she did and Boy A started missing her presence. It was then that Boy A knew he had to do something or he would lose her.However, it was too late. When Boy A thought bout his priorities and knew tat Gal B was all he wanted, it was too late. Well like all other matters, there is always 2 ways to look at things. Whatever decision Gal B makes,it is seriously up to her.If she leaves Boy A that will be too bad for Boy A or maybe herself. No one knows for sure if the decision is right or wrong.Its juz the perspective you are looking from.
1. Gal B leaves boy A. There is going to be pain for sure..not only for Boy A but for Gal B as well..Everyone deserves to be appreciated. Sometimes its juz too late to appologize :)
2. Gal B forgives boy A. So this may seem like a happy ending. But u'll never know. This mite juz b d beginning of a nitemare.. :)

What happened in d end?well Ive seen people who went for both the options..so theres really no right or wrong..
What is more important is to know what u really want..Once u've made d decision..juz make sure u dont look back n carry on..move on..

p/s:there may be times tat u wished u didnt make tat decision..at those time u may feel a lil stupid and retarded..well juz think of it as a lesson..

sumtimes distance really bring 2 souls closer bt on d other hand,it does creates a lil space in btw 2 souls as well..

its close 2 9 months since i've been apart frm my family..
yest my hsemates and I were juz excitedly talking bout goin home..
on d other hand,1 of them told me tat she was a bit worried bout goin back as well.after all,its been a while since we r away frm home..
wud it still remain d same?
or will v return as our parents grown up mature daughters?
i really dont knw..
bt i was chattin wif my bro d other day...and a few days b4 as well..
I taught hm hw 2 make honeydew sago over d phone..LOL!hw silly and stupid of me 2 waste my credit...well i suppose its also bcuz he is my 1 and only bro and its nt alwiz tat he ask 4 favors like this..so being d sweet n nice elder sis me..i called back a few times 2 make sure he was doin ok.i even text hm a few times l8r 2 check on hw it tasted and d 2nd experiment.LOL!
well good 2 hear tat it turned out well..
in addition 2 that,we started sharin our lil secrets again..this time more of like hm tellin me thing bout hm..
i haf 2 admit i havent been all tat carin over my bro all these while..its nt like i mistreat or dont sayang hm
but juz tat i nvr really asked hm bout hs life..
bt this time i got 2 knw more bout hm and made me realise hw important family is..
eventhou i was all emo and wanted 2 talk 2 sum1 tat day..
it juz made my day hearin hs side stories..
i suppose sumtimes u dun even haf 2 talk but as long as u try 2 at least listen,u r able 2 relief ur stress/emoness..
im really glad tat eventhou d person i truely wanted 2 b rite bside me was not there,god sent me another angel..
an angel who has been there thruout my life..
well i suppose its nt 2 late 2 realise nw..keke..

moreover,i was really thrilled listenin 2 high sch luv stories...hw happy and xcited 2 new love birds cud be..  :)
i sincerely wish them all d best and cant wait 2 see d gal in person... LOL!

Being in a relationship means so much more than juz 2 persons being in luv...

Being 2gether takes courage..
this means u'll fight thru rainy storms and scorching sun wif tat 1 person.
so u 2 can go thru dif phases in life..let it b happy or sad moments...
theres no alwiz happy moments..this is life so u'll juz haf 2 deal wif it..

then there comes responsibilities...2wards urself n ur partner cz nw its nt juz bout u n ur ltl world..
its bout ur partner's feelings too..
In other words...i call this commitment..
being commited means its a 24/7 thing...it means being ard 4 d person no matter wt it takes..
its nt when u wana b there then u'll b there and u dun haf to when u dont want to..
wts d point of being wif sum1 who only wants 2 b there 2 enjoy happy moments 2gether?
so wt happens when d worst strikes one day?r u gona run away n nvr come back?
after all...only sum1 who has been thru thick n thin wif u shud b d person tat u can trust 4 ur life..

being independent n havin separate lives..
i do respect tat every1 needs their ltl space n privacy...
bt is there really a line btw wantin 2 b cared for and being independent?
if there is..i wudnt knw where 2 stand..
despite believin tat i am an independent daughter,i fail 2 b an independent gf.
i need attention..i want attention and therefore i seek attention..
mayb sumtimes i try 2 hard tat it juz dissapoints me..
despite being 21,i still dun seem 2 knw wt r privacy..mayb bcuz mine has nvr been intruded..
so me being in my ltl wonderful world,i dun think there r anythin 2 hide and prefers 2 head d truthful way..


well i mite nt knw wt im sayin bt tats wt i wana say...after all,my brain is all drained up after readin thru 3240832497235 mcqs 4 BCH!

g2g gt sum rest for a long hardcore day of studyin 2ml...

i dled this song but i didnt really gif it a go til i was 2 bored sitting in front of d pc and found d song..so I played it together wif sum other songs in deserted as well...
then suddenly it juz hit me and reminded me of sum1...sum1 whom i love n miss deeply.
really sorry tar i wasnt there for her moz of this year.promise 2 make it up 2 u once im back.k?
so this song is dedicated to ms jolene anne baptist...
"So What-Pink"
gif it a go darling..its a noisy cum stupid lyics songs but sumhw i juz find it amusing..mayb u'll gif it a laugh after listenin 2 it cz i did.keke..
u knw u r a rockstar darling...
u'll alwiz haf ur rock moves..
u never need him and will not too..
once im back..we'll haf all d fun and show hm wt he missed out.. :)

愛不疚(love w/o regrets..)

Hiding within my vision, always lingering beside, can guess love is not present
After happily playing & laughing, and be able to totally retreat; as long as you are happy it’s enough.

This kind of feeling is too loving & warm; to speak a thousand phrases would be insufficient.
What if you were to hear it and afterwards leave
This kind of love is too rare, doesn’t need to completely possess
Giving approval, give (my) blessing wholeheartedly, then let go.

Let go, let go of everything, both will have greater freedom
Let go; in fact it’s not because I do not love enough
Let go, let go of everything without reserve, will still have a good friend
It’s already, already enough.

From a distance, in the background of “universal silence”, just observing is enough.

This kind of feeling is too loving & warm; to speak a thousand phrases would be insufficient.
Even though there was an instant, on impulse where I wanted to hold your hand
This kind of love is too rare, doesn’t need to completely possess
Even with heaviness of heart, (it’s best) to let go.

Let go, let go of everything, both will have greater freedom
Let go; in fact it’s not because I do not love enough
Let go, let go of everything without reserve, will still have a good friend
It’s already, already enough.

Let go, my memories (of you) cannot find an ending
Let go ! Wish you will have happiness & everything.
Maybe, love is very deep, but I have already seen it through
Can only possess when (you) let go.

let it go,if its yours..it'll alwiz come back 2 u!
wt is meant 2 b will alwiz find its way..

yummy breakfast cooked by d darling..
-raisin toast wif kaya n butter-
-scrambled egg-
-2 hams & a sausage-
-fruit juice-

hearty breakfast 4 two.. :)

me n my breakfast..wakaka...

:)

my cute china dolly hairstyle..


us @ East Cafe



breakky 4 d nex morning by d sweetheart again..
this time wif
-sandwich wif fry egg,ham,sausage,cheese n ketchup-
-corn by d side-
-nicely decorated sausage by d side-

my greedy face wif my curry laksa..*slurps*

me n my fav unagi..

dry wantan noodle wif char siew any1?keke..

*lurves*

me n green tea snow ice wif red bean..

our scrumptious meal-roti canai,man tau,curry chic,stir fry vege-

hubby n wifey in action 2gether=super yummy dinner

mango sai mai lou... :)

us @ d park

us wif d ferris wheel...(remember d proposal thingy i told u?*hinthint*)

stir fry noodle wif ham n sausage..

stir fry spaghetti wif char siew

ur bearlied bday blueeberry cheesecake

pancakes 2 end d trip...


i mwiss brissy damn lotz but i mwiss u even more darling.. :(

Im startin 2 hate this time of d year...laz year i've been hit by a major breakdown and this year im suffering from a major loss...sum1 who has seen me grown up 2 b who i am 2day..
all those time u';; call me 'tai ngan pok'-big popped out eyes..
'tai lek sei'-big arms mucles and i'll sillyly run 2 u and pull up my sleeves and show u my muscles..
those time u'll bring me out 4 roti canai and teach me hw 2 eat ur fav mutton curry...
then u slowly turned in2 a more grumpy grandpa..
then u had ur major operation which made all of us worry...
tat was d time v all knew u'll b goin soon bt god has granted us more time...
not only 4 u 2 see all of us grow but 4 us 2 take responsibility 2 taekcare of u as well..
it's so farnee hw sumtimes u cudnt recognise us but moz of d time u do recognise me.. :)
all i wana say is i'll miss u grandpa and may u rest in peace...

luv,
yen sun